Bullying over her looks, feeling she’d failed as a woman & pregnancy torment – Bonnie Blue’s most honest interview ever
SHE’S the world’s most notorious porn star who revels in scandalising the masses with outrageous social media stunts.
But behind her provocative persona, Bonnie Blue – famous for bedding more than 1,000 men in a day – hides a deep emotional trauma that left her feeling like she had “failed as a woman”.
In her most candid interview to date, the 25-year-old, whose real name is Tia Billinger, tells The Sun she had longed to be a loving mother, hoping to start a family with her now ex husband Oliver Davidson.
Speaking as part of Life Stories, The Sun’s YouTube series that sees ordinary people share their extraordinary experiences, she says: “I tried for a few years for a child and I couldn’t get pregnant.
“It felt embarrassing, which is wrong because it shouldn’t be like that, but you feel like you’re failing as a woman.
“It really was the most lonely time.
“I didn’t want to speak to my family about it because I felt like I should be going to them with a pregnancy announcement.”
The OnlyFans star admits she’s unsure whether she would have entered the sex industry had she had a child.
“It’s hard to say (whether I would have) because I have no idea,” Bonnie says.
“I think maybe some of this would have always happened, but would it have happened as early as it has? I don’t know.
“It’s hard, but I’m in a way glad the way my life has turned out, because I know when I do have children, if I have children, I’ll be able to be there and be present for them.
“I would always be very honest about my background too because had I not done it they would have a very different upbringing.”
Rise to infamy
When it comes to her own early years, teenage Tia was a far cry from her confident adult-star alter-ego.
“As a child I wasn’t overly clever and I did get picked on,” she says.
“It was mainly over my looks, which seems ironic to me now.”
Bonnie, from Derbyshire, rose to notoriety last year when she began bedding ‘barely legal’ university students for free in exchange for being allowed to film them.
Armed with signs saying ‘Bonk me for free and let me film it’, Bonnie slept with 158 students in just two weeks, prompting international outrage, with many branding the sex worker ‘predatory’.
She wasn’t done provoking the public and in January left Internet users horrified when she slept with 1,057 men in one day, breaking a world record.
It was an act so shocking that one mum arrived at Bonnie’s queue to haul her teenage son out.
Earlier this month, she further enraged fans by hinting she was pregnant, sharing a snap of her “cravings” and claiming her chances of conceiving after bedding over 1,000 men was “100%”.
However, she later confusingly shut down the rumours, saying: “I have never confirmed I was pregnant because I would never, ever lie about pregnancy.”
Bonnie has been criticised for the ‘negative example’ she is setting for teenagers, but she argues her videos endorse consent and female pleasure.
“In my videos everything is consensual and focused around pleasure,” she says.
“They show real people having real sex rather than it all being an act.
“You will never see me distressed or upset in any of my videos, which is a far cry from a lot of porn.”
Teenage troubles
Bonnie was 13 when she began dating her first boyfriend, who she eventually lost her virginity to.
She argues that it was the ‘pleasure-focused’ content she makes now that was severely lacking from her own teenage years.
“I didn’t love sex initially,” she admits.
“I didn’t know what I liked or what guys liked and I just didn’t have the knowledge to enjoy it like I do now.”
I have taken 300-400 virginities, and of course it can be awkward, but you just laugh it off
Bonnie Blue
At 14, Bonnie met her now ex-husband Oliver Davidson, a talented rugby player, whom she eventually married at the age of 22.
The couple moved to the Gold Coast of Australia, where Bonnie ditched her 9 to 5 job in marketing to become a cam girl.
“I was never interested in entering the sex industry until that point and that was mainly down to confidence issues,” Bonnie says.
“I didn’t enjoy sex as I do now, so doing it as a job was of zero interest to me.
“But then I saw these girls on TikTok who were camming and it meant they had total control over their work life and I really wanted that.
“So I tried it, I had never even really watched porn before so I was really nervous, but I loved it.”
The Sun's agony aunt, Sally Land weighs in...
The images of the ‘barely legal, barely breathing and the husbands’ queueing up for their ‘moment’ with Bonnie Blue were deeply unsettling and certainly nothing to aspire to.
Especially, when weeks earlier the world followed the utterly depressing Mazan rape case.
Again rows of men, some old, some young, some professional, some unemployed, lined up to face conviction for the aggravated rape of Gisèle Pelicort who had been drugged by her husband. He had then invited acquaintances to assault his wife, while he watched and recorded the abuse.
The similarities of both are striking; hordes of men lining up for sex with just one woman.
Of course there is a world of difference where, Bonnie Blue, invited men to have sex with her, while Gisèle was completely unaware of her abuse.
But in reality the two events aren’t so far apart. We know that the rise in violent porn is leading to a huge spike in violence against women and girls.
So to say that she thinks she is setting a good example to teenage girls simply doesn’t stack up.
I certainly haven’t encountered any teenagers who aspire to be on the end of abuse.
Her videos might be consensual but how can 40 seconds with anyone be pleasurable when you’ve got a line of unwashed blokes yards away readying for their turn?
Bonnie talks about ‘liking it rough’ and we know that extreme porn is normalising more dangerous practices in dating and sexual encounters.
Covered in bite marks and bruises, Bonnie insisted she wasn’t distressed and even liked being pulled around.
That’s fine – as she says it’s her body – but the other side is I hear from plenty of women and some men regularly, who feel deeply uncomfortable about being choked, hit, or degraded during sex but complain these practices have become commonplace and even expected.
Bonnie’s antics simply reinforce the objectification of women and the message to men that it’s okay to use them for their bodies.
And let’s not ignore every single one of those men who lined up to have sex with her. What sort of person queues wedged in between other men for a quick bonk, wearing little more than their socks?
No, I’d much rather hold up women like Southport yoga teacher Leanne Lucas, broadcaster Katie Piper, campaigner Dame Deborah James, or Gisèle Pelicort as role models for today’s teenagers – male and female.
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Bonnie says that her husband was one of her biggest supporters when she started out in the sex industry, difficult as that is to believe.
“He was so focused on my happiness,” Bonnie says.
“We’re not together anymore, we grew apart, so we decided to separate.
“But there was no drama, no cheating and he’s still very much involved in my life and is super proud of me and not ashamed in the slightest.”
Googling porn star names
Bonnie began camming in May 2023 and within two weeks claims she was earning around £2,000 a week.
Keen for a more passive approach, at the beginning of June that year she joined OnlyFans under the name Bonnie Blue.
“I just Googled ‘porn star names’,” she admits.
“I liked Bonnie as it was quite traditional and classy, and the blue just went well with my eyes.”
She admits that her on-camera persona was a far cry from who she was at the time.
“When I first started the whole thing was an act, I was no different to an actor and I was doing it all for the money,” Bonnie admits.
Disturbingly, her on-screen persona seems to have spilled over into every area of her life, with even her parents now ditching ‘Tia’ and calling her Bonnie.
“That’s changed now, even my family calls me Bonnie.”
On January 11 this year, Bonnie broke the world record after sleeping with over 1,000 men in 12 hours, with a grand total of 1,057 bedded at the Marylebone Mansion in London.
At the time she provocatively thanked all of the “barely legal, barely breathing and the husbands” who had attended the event.
Describing the event Bonnie says: “The first three to four hours, it was big groups to help with numbers.
“Then we went on to one to one and they had about 40 seconds max before we keep swapping.
“Then we went back to groups for a little bit, then back to one on ones and we finished with another big group.
“I had three toilet breaks, but that was it because I was so eager to get things going.
“It was like Christmas Day on repeat for me.”
Horrified the world
As well as the horrified backlash, Bonnie also prompted concern from the public who worried about her physical and mental health.
Following the stunt, many speculated that she was ‘traumatised’, with videos circulating of her with ‘tears in her eyes.’
Responding, Bonnie says: “Like any girl, my eyes water occasionally.
“At no point have I been emotional, people try to overanalyse things.
“Even though I am sat here today saying I love it, I enjoy it, I receive so much pleasure from it, the takeaway will still be that I’m ‘traumatised.’
Looking at pictures of the event afterwards, with hundreds of used condoms strewn across the floor of a Marylebone mansion, it is hard to imagine how any woman could escape that without being traumatised.
It really was the most lonely time. I didn’t want to speak to my family about it
Bonnie Blue
Attendees at the event were given the option of wearing a ski mask to protect their identity – which added to the sinister atmosphere in photos.
However, for Bonnie many of these men aren’t faceless or even forgotten. Surprisingly, she claims they make up her closest inner circle.
“I can’t stress enough how nice everybody who has been in my queue is,” she says.
“They’re not these disgusting men like people say they are, they’re some of the loveliest people I have ever met.
Heartbreakingly, she says these ‘clients’ are now her closest friends.
“If I have a day off or a birthday party, they’re the people I’d invite, not the people that I can sometimes be surrounded by.
“They’re the ones that don’t judge me. They’re the ones that understand me and pleasure me and I love pleasuring them.
“The men have also really bonded over the experience, which is lovely because making friends as an adult is hard.”
Family’s trauma
Bonnie admits that her lifestyle choices have made it difficult for her family to keep certain people in her life.
“I never had a big friendship group to start with,” she says.
“My family has lost friends over my career and some have told them to ‘disown me as a daughter.’
“I’ve always had a small circle and never been bothered about being popular.
“I’ve got my pets. I know what makes me happy. I don’t get lonely.”
Who is Bonnie Blue?
Born in May 1999, Bonnie – whose real name is Tia Billinger – grew up in a small Derbyshire village, and attended the Friesland School in the village of Sandiacre.
She has two half-siblings – a sister and a brother – who have always remained out of the public eye.
She never knew her biological father, and considers stepfather Nicholas Elliott her dad.
Bonnie also became something of a dance star in her local area, and competed in the British Street Dance Championships alongside her sister back in 2015.
She also had a part-time job at Poundstretcher as a teenager.
After school, she began working in recruitment.
In October 2022, Bonnie married Oliver Davidson, who she had started dating when she was just 15.
Once they were married, they moved to Australia, where Bonnie continued working in recruitment.
However, it was in Australia that she decided to pursue a different line of work, and tried her luck as a ‘cam girl’ – crediting Oliver for giving her the confidence to enter the adult entertainment world.
She quickly made a name for herself in the industry, and was soon making £5,000 a week.
But while her work life was going from strength to strength, her relationship was crumbling, and she and Oliver split after almost a decade together.
She moved over to OnlyFans following her cam girl success, and once again found fame on there.
She quickly became a favourite on the site, especially thanks to her “niche” of sleeping with young male students – such as when she bedded 158 students during Nottingham Trent University’s freshers week in September 2024.
Bonnie is now estimated to be worth £3 million, and makes around £600,000 a month on OnlyFans.
Her family are also supportive of her work, with mum Sarah Billinger even claiming she’s her daughter’s PA, and helps clean up after Bonnie’s events – as well as handing out condoms to young clients.
In January 2025, Bonnie claimed to have broken the world record for the most amount of sex in 12 hours, after apparently sleeping with 1,057 men from 1pm to 1am at a secret London event.
While many parents would struggle to sympathise, Bonnie says her own mum and dad have supported her throughout her career.
Her mum Sarah Billinger has even previously claimed to be her PA, helping to set up events and was rumoured to have passed condoms out to attendees.
“When a video of me was leaked to them it was a shock and it wasn’t how I planned to tell them,” Bonnie says.
“They knew I’d sort of been trying for a baby beforehand and so it was a 180 move for them but they were very supportive.
“Once they realised I was doing it because I wanted to do it and not because I was in money troubles they were happy as long as I was happy and safe.”
Bonnie claims she is both – and filthy rich on top of that.
I want to pay the college tuition of the student who can give me the best orgasm
Bonnie Blue
In the last 30 days she says she has earned £1.5 million thanks to her extreme content, but the X-rated creator is also keen on giving back to her supporters in typically provocative fashion.
“I’m heading to Mexico for Spring Break next week and I want to pay the college tuition of the student who can give me the best orgasm,” she says.
“I will also cover the fees of the person with the smallest penis.”
Bonnie says she’d like to be bringing in £5million a month, but money isn’t her ultimate goal.
“If that (money) ever came at a cost, where my pleasure went or my enjoyment went, I would stop,” she says.
“The goal for me is happiness, freedom and doing what I want to do because I love it.”